November 8th, 2009 (12:57 pm)
current mood: bouncy
Its been a while since I had a proper update.
Actualy there is so much going on lately that I cant even start to write it down, its too much.
One of the girls in my platoon tried to kill herself 2weeks ago. All since the start she is mentally instable. She is a friend, but she doesnt want to see that she is not capable for the work we're doing (Im also not really fit for it, but I acknowlage that, thats why Im busy to change postion) . She isnt good at sport at all, she is too much overweight, she smokes too much, and she suffers from multiple medical auwies, our platoon dislikes her, and her past is catching up on her, she just cant let go of her childabusive / sexual abusive history (then your a ticking time bomb... if your working in military).
So 2weeks ago, we had a major fieldtraining, she went to see the shrink, and after that she didnt wanted to go back on the field anymore. I tried to talk sense into her, stayed with her for over 2hours, until our CO game, she flipped totally. Refused an order, I had to stand between her and the CO, had to pull her collar, make her go. (refusing an direct order is truly a crime, and the CO we have right now is really a GI JOE if you get the pic, he wanted to knock her down..) Still she refused, I told her, just go, call me when you get there and I call the Head CO crisis intervention psych.. But just go.
So I gave her some time, walk outside, to calm down our CO because he was raging outside the building calling names etc. Go back inside and all I find were pills on the ground..she was sitting there being numb. I smacked her in the face, but she stayed numb, opened her mouth, got behind her and pushed her belly, making her spitting out those pills..
She came a bit back to her senses, and said she only wanted 2 ibu's.. yea right.. I collected at least 19 on the floor and there were 3 in her mouth and 2 came out after I pushed her belly.
I ran outside, ordered.. yep I yelled at the CO that he had to leave! (like I can give an order.. NOT) He looked at me, suprised, and did leave!
I called crisis intervention. That Captain came.. they admitted her.
So drama's all over..
Since then I have to report myself at 5.45 in the freaking morning!
Whatever. I dont have probs with my CO.. actually we have a good work relationship..I think this order came from my LT.
So now its official im the only girl in the platoon.
P-90 = Power!
In the last field training I had to be a P-90 shooter.. freaking awesome, a lightweight weapon, small, and very powerfull. Way much funner to use this in sim's instead of shootinglane. The boys had to carry around the heavy minimi.
Standing my Grounds!
Yep, its the old me. Two days ago I went with some of my platoonies to the bar at the compound where ofcourse that creepy skinhead pathetic guy hung out as well. While I was back in training we had sometimes some arguments..
He is 34 y/o and I see him every sunday in the train where he wants to show me movies on his phone about very young girls (minors) .. you know what I mean. I told him many times how disgusting he is.. also knowing he has a daughter of his own. I already reported this.
He keeps asking me if I want to sit on his lap...etc. you know stupid boys talk.
So when we were at the bar, 2 days ago, he kept calling me, I ignored him.. The bar was packed with staff and students.. suddenly he is behind me and wants to lift me up.. I turn around, smack him right in the face with my fist.. he looks suprised, calls my name, and I gave him another on right on his left jaw... Everybody was laughing in his face.. And told him he got what he deserved..
He walked away, in silence feeling ashamed.
Serious, I have to stand my ground in a atmosphere like this.. thats why I dont wanna be in the infantry.
The Artist and many others..
I know it sounds snobby. But I do have official 9 stalkers.
I do like 2 of them. One is the artist..but I just like him, I will never start a relationship with him. The other one is a guy from my own platoon, but he is too young, but has such a big heart!
The oldest stalker, (he called the mainoffice to get me on the phone to ask me out!!!!) He is freaking 48 years old!
Also my old CO, is not really stalking me, we just have fun.
I went to Utrecht, Tilburg, Eindhoven, Den Bosch, and still I havent found anything.. very annoying!
Monday - Cut day!
Some of you know, what will happen 2morrow. Im not really nervous..only that I cant eat , drink or smoke..kinda annoying!
If I do die.. the world will keep turning..
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